My R@nDoM St@t3$ of B3iN

PLAY BOI (IT IS A POEM NOW IT IS A SONG COMING OUT IN JANUARY 09)

2008-09-08T14:22:00.000-07:00

You are ova there talkin bout u want to be with me but you r ova there with here

You are ova there talkin bout I am the reason why u cant even sleep a night

..... I think that you are just a bunch of BULL !!!

You are ova there talkin bout I should stay the rest of the night witcha......

I should not depend on these dudes out here ...

I should b ur MAIN SQUEEZE !!!!

BUT BOI I KNO U ACTIN LIK U OWN ME ND CONTROL ME !!!

I should B ur Everything

I should not get MAD if ur CREEPIN or FLIRTIN

BOI U NEED 2 KNO DAT U GOT ME C.H.O.P.P.E.D nd S.C.R.E.W.E.D

Boi i hope that you kno dat u r just a play boi

thinkin dat if u get in these gurls minds out here .... u can anything dat u want

Boi i dont kno Y u R tryin 2 play role

IS IT 4 UR FRIENDS OR 4 A SHOW ( I AM NOT IMPRESSED)

My article for my newspaper for school ...

2008-02-21T13:58:00.000-08:00

As you all would probobly know that this month is BHM or Black History Month. For my newspaper at my high school I am writing about how racial segregation, racial discrimination, racism, and something else I had forgot to add, I talk about how these things are taking a toll in everyday life, what these terms mean, and I am trying to persuade an audience to pay close attention to these things.

I have to go now this will be continued tomorrow.

Today Was A.....

2008-02-21T13:31:00.000-08:00

Usually I have a great day, but today it was just CRAZY for me. I had fell and hurt me need and then in the middle of the day my leg on the left side, the bone started to shift in out of place. Everybody heard a loud noise from where I fell, some teachers came to see what was the loudness was all about. The teachers later realize what that loud BANG was; that was me WHEN I HAD FELL. I wanted to cry, but I did not want act like a big baby and get teased by my fellow classmates(JUNIORS). When it came to going to my classes, everybody was talking about how I fell; All I could do is laugh at falling. But the one thing I will not laugh about the WAY I HAD FELL AND WHAT IMPACT IT HAD ON ME AND THOSE WHO SAW ---> which some thought that it was funny and some asked me if I was OKAY !!!

I dont know why the world turns away from me

2008-02-01T13:58:00.000-08:00

why does the world turn away from me?

Why does no one want anything to do with me?

Is it because I am different, is it because I am a type of person who likes making friends.

Is it because that I am a one band man when it comes to doing my schoolwork and homework by myself at times.

I dont know why the world turns away from me.

Why does the world turn away from me?

Is it because I want to make a difference in people and then the world.
But before I do that I have to make the difference in myself first.

Is it because I can dance, act, or sing.

Be myself, drop and plop on people, with a bang.

It is because I want to be different and not to try to intimate anyone else that is doing a CRAZE so i should cop their ORGINALITY, CLASS, and SYTLE.

Why does the world turn away from me?

From that I dont why the whole world turn away from me

February 14 ----> Valentine's DAY

2008-02-01T13:35:00.000-08:00

We know that February is the month of Groundhogs, people's Birthday's , and even the President's (WASHINGTON AND LINCOLN). February is also the month of Love and Relationships.

When I think of Valentine's Day---> I think it is the worsest day of the year for me because I can never find a Valentine or Just I can not have a relationship with a boy that I really do like and likes me back. Everytime I fall in love with a boy ---> yeah i become really CLUMSY and can not help it ---> it is just that they either what to sleep with me or they just want to mess with my friend, enemy, or a family member to make it ALL WORSE. Everytime I fall in love with someone, they either are having or living a DOUBLED LIFE or they have issues that brings them back to a time in their life that makes them go crazy or makes them depressing.

I can relate to these occasions:

When I was in the 8th grade, I use to go with this guy who treated me really well and never ever put me in harms way. He was a cool guy that you can tell anything to. He just had my back no matter what ---> until FEBRUARY 14th. He told me that I was a girl who was really good 2 him and said things that made people around me until he had said we needed to be friends. In front of him I did not want to cry and told I was cool with it all (KNOWN DAMN WELL I WAS FURIOUS). But he knew that I wanted to go on the rampage and kill him and go after her. I wanted to ask him "why did he do that to me", but I walked away. UNTIL, the next day I saw him kissing this girl named SHAQUANA...........OOOPSSSSS.......I did not want to put he out on the spot like that but I JUST DID ------> OH WELL !!!!!!!

Yep! he was kissing her and I got really angry and upset with it.

NOW, when I was going with MALIK, I am still trying to figure out what I saw in him. But I am still trying to figure that out. I WILL GET OVER IT!!!!!!! But when he was messin with Shaquana ---> I thought that to get back at my ex was to go with MALIK and SHAQUANA MAD !!!! Over that period of time i go to know MALIK for who he really is over the time I was going with him -----> SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO I HAD DUMPED HIM.

NOW, when it comes to TED he is a good guy for me. He really does care about me and I care about him. BUT sometimes I think we could NEVER REALLY BE !! Because we live in different areas or sections of the city (NORTH PHILLY FOR ME AND WEST PHILLY FOR HIM). Also it is a hard time trying to go over each other houses and hook up to go out to do anything.

Everytime I go into the VALENTINE'S DAY TRADITION and the day itself itself just makes me go really CRAZY.

EVERYTIME I FALL IN LOVE WITH SOME 1, It is just a waste of TIME for me.

I know other people can relate to this.

Today was a BAD DAY !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-01-25T13:30:00.000-08:00

today, January 25, 2008, A Friday.

I was having a good day until I got home. My neck started hurting after I was taking my mid-terms for the first and second semester of the September - January school year. But the messed up part is that when I got on the Subway at Race and Vine with my friend Jasmine my thoat started closing up one me and my head started to hurt.

the only thing I am worried about is passing the mid-terms. I think that these pains everywhere on my body is from studying for the mid-terms.

The One I can call my own

2008-01-24T14:05:00.000-08:00

The one I can call my own ... who can he be

Can he be my best friend since I have known since the first time we had cross bridges together.

Can he be the boy I have grown up with in Elementary School.

Or maybe he is the boy next door or around the corner.

The one I can call my own is the first statement.

I wont even just say his name (YOU ALL PROBABLY KNOW HIM).

I sometimes I wonder does he even know that I have feelings for him.

Everytime I see his face and say his hame I start to blush, but everybody just wants me to hush and keep that lovey dovey stuff to myself.

But everytime I keep stuff inside that deals with LOVE to myself, The feelings that are in a bottle that resembles my heart overruns and I just start to explode and tell that MAN how I really feel.

But when you tell someone that you like them or even LOVE them, you just dont know if they like or LOVE you back.

The one I can call my own ... I hope that he reads this and have second thoughts about Me.

I hope that he understands how I really feel.